Love, Life and Muscle!

went out on a date last weekend. this guy has been on the prowl for a while. we met through a mutual friend and he has been relentless. so, how did it go? waste of my friday night. he kept asking me why i was eating this and not ordering alcohol and on and on he went. geeezzzzz, he annoyed the crap out of me :(

i'm overwhelmed with my workload and so i'm gettin up early, early for my extra cardio sessions. Tony has me on some short bulk-up cycle due to my rapid weight loss. it is working extremly well. muscle are poppin like never before. i asked big T if I could use some of the tricks on my clients (i'm a personal trainer as well), he said "go for it". So I will :)

if i don't get some new music on my Ipod, i'm goin to go out of my mind. here is a piece of advice i have been giving my clients but never following. if you don't change the music you workout to, it can effect your training negatively and you will not even realize it. that is, of course, if you're a music FREAK like me and can't train without it (hehehehehe)

till next time :)

I'll Go Through You!

Someone sent me these kool words recently so i thought i would share them. they came to me after I shared some personal stuff on another blog that had been trying to come back at me in my sometimes miserable life. anyway here goes............

"If you disregard my words, I'll go around you you. If you ignore my ideas, I'll go over you. If you laugh at my dreams, I'll go through you!"

my life???? pretty much been a life filled with goin around, over and through. not complainin, just sayin. it is what it is. if i had a dime for every time someone important in my life didn't believe in me, i would OWN bill gates and microsoft.

on the fitness front, i'm kickin it for real. I'm down a total of 14 pounds. my body is lookin tight, hard and vascular. my trainer (the one and only Tony) has been puttin the "mental" into my game plan and it has me flying high. don't want junk food and not gonna let it get in the way of my goals.

all for now. OUT!

Glimpse of Glory or ...is it Ugly?

the other night at the gym i was doing my extra cardio and i turned to look at myself in the mirror. i'm my own worst critic. really, i don't think i have ever been happy with myself. although i have been told the opposite (mostly by guys tryin to get some), i just feel like i always want to change somethin about me. by the way, i've been told more than once by different people that i look like a cross between tyra banks and J-lo...WTF! WTF does that mean??? i don't see it....

anyway, as i was looking and beating myself up over what i saw (by the way, i look better than I ever have in my life right now), the guy next to me on the treadmill asked me if i had done magazine covers. i was like, whatever. he said, no really, you look like someone i saw on a fitness magazine recently. he was serious and even told me he would bring it in to the gym next time to show me. all i know is this, God sometimes brings things just when we need them. after he said that, i looked in the mirror and said, DAMN, i do look freakin HOT :) then i remembered something Tony (www.dreambodies.net) told me once about how i need to understand who "i" am. he was right. no matter if that guy brings the magazine or not, i need to see the good and not the ugly. on another note, damn those shin splints :(

Get out of my way!

Sometimes just the everyday momentum of life seems to get in the way. i was talking with a few girlfriends recently and they were telling me about personal issues and I was getting all bummed out. then they went on to start complaining about their bodies and their boy problems and I was like GIVE IT A REST! I listened and tried to help them out. we talked and talked. then they started to slowly depress me. wanted to know why i eat such clean food. wanted to know why i follow the directions of this HOT gorgeous italian guy (Tony..my trainer for those who do not know) who i never met. go eat girl, you look awesome. why you doin that? meanwhile, all they do when i see them is want to know what Tony has me doin...when did you talk to him last? will he train us? let's fly to NY and meet him,,,,,,blah, blah, blah. Like i would let them get anywhere near him :) hehehehehe

i realized something as i listened to them. i realized that they were truly affecting me negatively. then i remembered something Big T told me about surrounding myself with people who were positive and who shared in my dreams. i made a decision to make some changes. I will now really be aware of how i spend my time and with "WHO". i heard a figure competitor say the same thing this past week in my gym. Stay away from negative people.

So i will do that.

Don't Be the Killer of Your Own Dreams!

That is what Tony told me a few days ago as i shared some personal issues with him that were clearly holding me back. I don't want to share what I have struggled with because it is all over the place, but big T knew exactly where I was holding back. when he said, "Don't be the Killer of your own Dreams", my heart fell to the floor. it fell because he was so right. he then went on to tell me "how" I was doing it and "why". i don't know how he got in my head, but he caused me to look inside like i never have before. he also then gave me the tools to move forward. this guy has changed my life. even if he never talked to me again or kept me as a client, he changed my life.

enuff emotional stuff. on the training front i am kickin it like nobody knows. I told Tony about some workouts this week and he shifted some dietary things that seem to have me more energetic and more pumped. i can't wait to see what this week brings as i have a new focus and a new mind. i told T that he should throw some intense workouts at me since i feel like a new person. Ooops, mistake huh?

Being a dreambodies DIVA...yup, i'm addicted to how we kick it!!!!!!

Progress, Plight and Pizza

Yup Yup, things are going really well. My body is changing by the minute and i'm getting lots of comments at the gym. For instance, this guy came up to me and said, "hey, looking real tight..are you going in a show?" i was like, yes, but not just yet. he says, "i'm a trainer and i can help you" i said, "i'm also certified, but i still have the best there is training me, but thanks anyway" he says,"the best, who is that?" i said, he's the one we call "T",,enuff said. www.dreambodies.net act like u know fool. this boy is the bomb! the best trainer in the world. if he can crack me into shape, trust me, he be the best!

life don't happen without plight and pain. this comes in the form of a close friend of the family who just passed away of cancer this past week. she was dear to me and helped my moms when i was younger. sad. i'm sad.

my friends offered up a pizza to cheer me up. i said no thanks. i kept seeing tony's gorgeous face smiling at me every time they took a bite. i'm livin the life of a fitness chick gone wild and i got no time for fatty food.

this week i will be heading to Cali,,,,fornia , that is :) visiting some friends. already have the gym scoped out. this girl will not miss a beat.

This Train Can't Stop

Okay, so I'm workin with the hottest trainer on the planet AKA "pretty boy" Tony Dicostanzo of dreambodies (my cousin met him face to face in NY and she said HOLY BEEF-CAKES batman, the boy is gorgeous). anyway, enough of my crush (its harmless). he is kickin my glutes like never before. i'm only a couple of weeks in and I lost about 6 pounds of fat. following the plan to the 't' and givin it all i can. it has not been eazzee givin it all because life has been tryin to mess with me. death of a friend and all kinds of family issues workin. but i'm already gettin comments. i think this program is soooo diffrent than any other. Tony is definitely one reason. he has a way about him i must agree with some others. but it is also the nutrition and the workouts are insane. i'm certified myself, but i never knew some of the things he taught me. intense and serious.

i'm off now to do extra cardio. gotta go and visit a relative tonight that i haven't seen in a while and it should be interesting -meaning-MORE DRAMA!

just wanted to update you all and thank you for all the encouraging words and bloggings. This "T" diva is takin it to the MAX babeeee :)