ah life. so wonderful and yet so filled with CRAP-ola :0) i'm not going to spend too much time on the gym saga except to say that i will be leaving in about 3-4 weeks. but, it seems until that time i will need to deal with a new manager FROM HELL! her name is, o'well, WTF, her name is justine and she is a BIATCH! i think they hired her just to make things uncomfortable for me.
soooo, are you ready to hear what this new girl did to me? she walks up to me and asks me for my upcoming monthly schedule. she wanted to know how many spin classes, aerobic classes and bod pump classes i had lined up and then she said she also wanted all of my clocked hours with clients names and dates/times. HOLD ON, i haven't shared the kicker yet~! she did all of this while i was in the middle of training a client~~~! can you believe that?? my client looked at me and said, "if you need to go do something, i understand Mia!" i said, "Hell NO. what i need to do is tell this BIATCH to back off while i'm working." she turned to me and said, "what did you just say? are you talking about me?" i said, "Hell yaaaa, i'm talking about you, so back off"
now mind you, this came after i gave her the EYES and told her we really need to do this later. she didn't care and continued to bother me. sooooo, whatever! i then had to have a pow wow with one of the owners and her. who cares (LOL). i'm outta there and off to another facility with much better pay and more opportunities to have my personal promotions.
workouts are great. eating is great. my body has never looked like this--ever. mindset is great.
i actually started spending more and more time on doing lots of i mind-motivational exercises that tony gave me to do and also some planning he assigned me. it helped me bigtime to rekindle the coals of my fires.
lovin my life right now. keep on keepin at it DIVAS. the Dreambodies Divas will rule the world one day :)
Monday, March 24, 2008
Monday, March 17, 2008
No More Drama and I Never Want to Look back
i'm sitting here writing this with tears in my eyes. good tears. happy tears. although i'm young, my life has been filled with pain. a lot of pain. so much so that when that song by MJ Blige came out "No More Pain" all of my friends, girlfriends and family members (ones i talk to anyway) all told me they thought of ME when they heard that song. i was like, "gee, thanks...i think"
well, i can say as i sit here typing this that i finally have my life back. it has been a long journey and although i know it is far from over, i can say without hesitation I HAVE WON the battle. I have now overcome the "food" issue and it is NO longer a demon in my life. binging, purging, crying, eating and doing it all over again day after day. i would have liked to blame it on my career (past tense) when i was modeling. as a model i had no choice but to eat nothing most of the time or lose jobs. long story short, some days me and my model girlfriends would joke about who had a bigger piece of lettuce that day. that's right, one piece of lettuce for the entire day. not a salad. ONE PIECE of lettuce!! it was sick. then there would be days of uncontrollable binging. i truly thought i would NEVER turn my life around. i prayed and cried on a daily basis for months. i knew if i didn't get control over it that my life was over. i found my way and i have now been clean for almost a year. i have not eaten anything unhealthy in almost the same time. i have attended many, many parties and looked at foods that i LOVE but never gave in and did not want to.
my life is now MY life. my body is transformed and new and clean and i will never turn back. my inspiration always came from my grandmother. she lived for me it seemed. she has passed and i miss her every single day. i love you mammaboo. but i was blessed to have another inspiration in my life. my trainer Tony. he gave me back my mind, my body and my health. he taught me HOW to think and see things in a new way. i was pushy but he never gave up on me. he kept teaching me and i kept listening to him. i owe him more than i will ever be able to repay him.
so now i sit here with some herbal tea and as i relfect on my life i feel invincible knowing that i overcame so much and now i have so much ahead of me to run towards.
thank you all for your wonderful comments and e-mails. you know who you are and many of you Tony Divas (so many not even in the same circles), have been another source of inspiration and i appreciate you all very much. kisses and hugs to each and every one of you.
i think i will finish my cry and hit the gym :)
well, i can say as i sit here typing this that i finally have my life back. it has been a long journey and although i know it is far from over, i can say without hesitation I HAVE WON the battle. I have now overcome the "food" issue and it is NO longer a demon in my life. binging, purging, crying, eating and doing it all over again day after day. i would have liked to blame it on my career (past tense) when i was modeling. as a model i had no choice but to eat nothing most of the time or lose jobs. long story short, some days me and my model girlfriends would joke about who had a bigger piece of lettuce that day. that's right, one piece of lettuce for the entire day. not a salad. ONE PIECE of lettuce!! it was sick. then there would be days of uncontrollable binging. i truly thought i would NEVER turn my life around. i prayed and cried on a daily basis for months. i knew if i didn't get control over it that my life was over. i found my way and i have now been clean for almost a year. i have not eaten anything unhealthy in almost the same time. i have attended many, many parties and looked at foods that i LOVE but never gave in and did not want to.
my life is now MY life. my body is transformed and new and clean and i will never turn back. my inspiration always came from my grandmother. she lived for me it seemed. she has passed and i miss her every single day. i love you mammaboo. but i was blessed to have another inspiration in my life. my trainer Tony. he gave me back my mind, my body and my health. he taught me HOW to think and see things in a new way. i was pushy but he never gave up on me. he kept teaching me and i kept listening to him. i owe him more than i will ever be able to repay him.
so now i sit here with some herbal tea and as i relfect on my life i feel invincible knowing that i overcame so much and now i have so much ahead of me to run towards.
thank you all for your wonderful comments and e-mails. you know who you are and many of you Tony Divas (so many not even in the same circles), have been another source of inspiration and i appreciate you all very much. kisses and hugs to each and every one of you.
i think i will finish my cry and hit the gym :)
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
As my stomach turns the barbells Burn!!
My Stomach: for real, the guys who own the gym i train at are freakin nuts! okay, that is a severe understatment. they need a lifetime of therapy. okay, that is still not expressing my thoughts here. let's say first, i'm sick to my stomach and don't want to work at this gym anymore. here goes the latest saga: the other day the two owners call all of the staff into the office. they begin this stupid meeting by saying that they are thinking of breaking their partnership and so one of them may move on and take sole ownership of another gym not that far from us. ahhhh, YEAH, we all , looked at each other like "WTF?". then they say, "decide where you want to work because we want you to make a choice (insert>> WTF???) i turned around and couldn't keep my mouth shut anymore so i said, "i'm not happy working for either of you two guys, so how about that?" BaBooooom!! you could have heard a pin drop. they looked at me and said, "sorry to hear that you're so unhappy, why are you here then?". i said, "i'm here because it pays the bills." then i said, "shouldn't your question be "why are you unhappy working here or why do you not want to work with either of us?" so the nutty steroid boss (let's call him MOE) turns to me and says, "i don't really give a F$%K why you're unhappy, get your SH$T AND GET OUT!"
no, i didn't cry and i never let thugs make me cry. i popped off more punks than these two clowns in my life already. i turned to him and said, "i will gladly leave. learn how to run a business you freakin loser." (i admit i was a bit scared for a moment as he jumped up because i've seen this guy lose it) at that point he walks towards me with a crazy look on his face. i said, "what? whatcha gonna do tough guy?" ((( here is where i said something i didn't plan on saying--see below))) now as he gets closer his partner steps in the middle and says "okay that's enough. Mia is entitled to her opinion. we don't exactly run this place well sometimes." here is were it gets good. then one of the trainers turns to both of them and says, "you guys are running this place to the ground and i'm sickof your bullsh$%T." ( this trainer knows these two for years and they have sponsered his bodybuilding shows and stuff.). guess what happens next? you got it, a brawl right there in the office. two guys working out in the gym had to come in from the gym and break it up. fists were flying. after it all cooled down the cops came. we all sat down and the owners apologized to all of us and me personally. we worked out an arrangement "if" they decide to split up. FYI, i have thrown my resume at a few places and i'm gettin out. i admit that what kept me there was the money. these guys PAY WELL. as trainers we get a huge split and a portion of gym memberships and even more. but, i can't take it anymore. so, i say, PEACE! I be Gone"
confession time: as the steroid boss (MOE) walked towards me and i cracked words at him, i just felt compelled to say the following words, "If you lay a hand on me, my trainer Tony from New York is going to crush your A#s". yeah, i know, probably shouldn't have dragged the T-man into it but i know he wouldn't mind (hehehehe) BTW, it did work and before his partner stepped in the middle he was scratching his head and trembling ( i showed him a picture of tony once).
Barbells: well enough of the soap opera that turns my stomach. i can say that my workouts and eating have been "spot on" the money. tony has me doing some intense barbell routines that are a lot of compound movements all in his "CRIT-style" which is kickin my butt big time and i'm loving it. i'm so happy right now in my life. i finally overcame my food issues. it didn't come easy and Tony is the one that gave me the victory. every time he would talk to me and tell me what to do and how to do it, i would write it down and follow it to the 't'. i thought i would be forever shackled to my binges and my sorrow. i would go from two full weeks of eating clean and thinking i had "won the battle" only to find myself stuffing a whopper and fries down my throat. then, i would stick my finger down my throat. yes, i said it, i did it. it was a terrible cycle. how did i overcome it, his name is Tony Dicostanzo and he is the master of mind and body conditioning. if you really WANT to change NO ONE can do it like he can.
i will leave by quoting similar to my girlfriend, evelyne over on her blog: Tony if you ever do read my blog, YOU ARE A GENIUS and I'm absolutely, totally, unequivocally indebted to you"
i could cry when i think of how this man has changed my life and my body beyond my wildest dreams.
well, DIVAS, i hope he and stacey give us the scoop soon because i'm dyin to know what is happening :) later for now :)
no, i didn't cry and i never let thugs make me cry. i popped off more punks than these two clowns in my life already. i turned to him and said, "i will gladly leave. learn how to run a business you freakin loser." (i admit i was a bit scared for a moment as he jumped up because i've seen this guy lose it) at that point he walks towards me with a crazy look on his face. i said, "what? whatcha gonna do tough guy?" ((( here is where i said something i didn't plan on saying--see below))) now as he gets closer his partner steps in the middle and says "okay that's enough. Mia is entitled to her opinion. we don't exactly run this place well sometimes." here is were it gets good. then one of the trainers turns to both of them and says, "you guys are running this place to the ground and i'm sickof your bullsh$%T." ( this trainer knows these two for years and they have sponsered his bodybuilding shows and stuff.). guess what happens next? you got it, a brawl right there in the office. two guys working out in the gym had to come in from the gym and break it up. fists were flying. after it all cooled down the cops came. we all sat down and the owners apologized to all of us and me personally. we worked out an arrangement "if" they decide to split up. FYI, i have thrown my resume at a few places and i'm gettin out. i admit that what kept me there was the money. these guys PAY WELL. as trainers we get a huge split and a portion of gym memberships and even more. but, i can't take it anymore. so, i say, PEACE! I be Gone"
confession time: as the steroid boss (MOE) walked towards me and i cracked words at him, i just felt compelled to say the following words, "If you lay a hand on me, my trainer Tony from New York is going to crush your A#s". yeah, i know, probably shouldn't have dragged the T-man into it but i know he wouldn't mind (hehehehe) BTW, it did work and before his partner stepped in the middle he was scratching his head and trembling ( i showed him a picture of tony once).
Barbells: well enough of the soap opera that turns my stomach. i can say that my workouts and eating have been "spot on" the money. tony has me doing some intense barbell routines that are a lot of compound movements all in his "CRIT-style" which is kickin my butt big time and i'm loving it. i'm so happy right now in my life. i finally overcame my food issues. it didn't come easy and Tony is the one that gave me the victory. every time he would talk to me and tell me what to do and how to do it, i would write it down and follow it to the 't'. i thought i would be forever shackled to my binges and my sorrow. i would go from two full weeks of eating clean and thinking i had "won the battle" only to find myself stuffing a whopper and fries down my throat. then, i would stick my finger down my throat. yes, i said it, i did it. it was a terrible cycle. how did i overcome it, his name is Tony Dicostanzo and he is the master of mind and body conditioning. if you really WANT to change NO ONE can do it like he can.
i will leave by quoting similar to my girlfriend, evelyne over on her blog: Tony if you ever do read my blog, YOU ARE A GENIUS and I'm absolutely, totally, unequivocally indebted to you"
i could cry when i think of how this man has changed my life and my body beyond my wildest dreams.
well, DIVAS, i hope he and stacey give us the scoop soon because i'm dyin to know what is happening :) later for now :)
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Reality Shows and THE TRUTH about Me!!
my life seems to be MY reality show, so i'm not too interested in many of these ridiculous TV programs anymore. i just wake up and open my eyes and there is REALITY (hehehehe). my reality show life kinda looks like that show on BRAVO , Workout (i think that's the name) with the gym owner girl because i work as a trainer at a crazy health club (no names, sorry). anyway, so much crap going on at my gym that it's hard to explain. the two guys that own the gym are criminals. one is on steroids bigtime and the other is a playboy who spends all day trying to "help" girls do their sets and reps right (uhh-hmm). well, yesterday they got into a fight and the steroid guy tossed a computer across the office and it hit one of the other trainers in the face. not funny at all. then some girl comes in cryin because"playboy" boss didn't pick her up earlier for lunch and drinks and she was sad. little did she know he was up in another office boinking one of the new trainers (YUK). he tried to pull that sh$t with me more than once but i let him have it "street-style" and he hasn't tried since.
dating scene is quiet right now, but that is about to change as i seem to have found someone i think is awesome, okay i better relax and not jinx it (LOL)
my workouts are awesome and i'm gettin stronger every day. my body is lookin crazy-hot. maybe i'll lose the vanity and post up one or two pics soon for yall to see. i haven't looked like this ever in my life and have some truth to share about my past. i used to have a serious eating disorder. okay, it was life threatening, that's pretty serious huh? i recently read so many other girls sharing and telling some of their darkest trials, i just felt it was time to talk about it. i have a problem sharing too much of it because i was never able to deal with it myself let alone talk about it. although i have shared some of my personal past, lets just say that life was pretty much over at one point. im getting emotional now so ill save the rest for another time.
anyway, thanks to my friend and the greatest personal trainer in the universe (Tony-DUH), i now live for today and tomorrow and feel like i can conquer the world. there was a time when i didn't think i would make it. i know, i was young and had my whole life ahead of me but still didn't think i would make it. life is precious and time is NOT something you get back. Tony taught me that once. you can get back money, things and all the stuff in the world if you work hard enough,,but you never get back time. so true. so true. i'm not wasting anymore of mine. you will never read this tony,,but thank you,,thank you tony for the new body and the new mind.
well, off to the crazy gym for another day of wackiness!!!!
dating scene is quiet right now, but that is about to change as i seem to have found someone i think is awesome, okay i better relax and not jinx it (LOL)
my workouts are awesome and i'm gettin stronger every day. my body is lookin crazy-hot. maybe i'll lose the vanity and post up one or two pics soon for yall to see. i haven't looked like this ever in my life and have some truth to share about my past. i used to have a serious eating disorder. okay, it was life threatening, that's pretty serious huh? i recently read so many other girls sharing and telling some of their darkest trials, i just felt it was time to talk about it. i have a problem sharing too much of it because i was never able to deal with it myself let alone talk about it. although i have shared some of my personal past, lets just say that life was pretty much over at one point. im getting emotional now so ill save the rest for another time.
anyway, thanks to my friend and the greatest personal trainer in the universe (Tony-DUH), i now live for today and tomorrow and feel like i can conquer the world. there was a time when i didn't think i would make it. i know, i was young and had my whole life ahead of me but still didn't think i would make it. life is precious and time is NOT something you get back. Tony taught me that once. you can get back money, things and all the stuff in the world if you work hard enough,,but you never get back time. so true. so true. i'm not wasting anymore of mine. you will never read this tony,,but thank you,,thank you tony for the new body and the new mind.
well, off to the crazy gym for another day of wackiness!!!!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
California and O'Yeah The Newsletter that Made me Cry!!
i'm here in california with family and also working while I take some time here on the West coast. I do a lot of that east coast/west coast thing. tupac and Dr. Dre said it best "California, knows how to party" (guess that will fly over the heads of those who don't follow hip/hop).
thought i would blog and say hey. things are going great with my workouts and i'm loving the way tony has me going back and forth from body part to full blown CRIT (crit is secret DreamBodies language so i can't give specifics or tony would kill me- and sue me). o' well, i feel kinda tired of the whole dating thing. every time i come to LA, my family tries to hook me up with this guy from over here or that guy from over there (LOL) and I know it is all in an effort to get me to move to california. not gonna happen. but anyway, the dates have been boring and i've decided to focus on me and leave the men alone for a while. whether my family likes it or not.
gotta share something with my tony divas. did y'all see the newsletter about him running and crying??? OMG, i was like in tears reading it. hard to picture this big, sexy gorgeous guy running and balling on the treadmill. but, that is why we love him. his e-mails lately have motivated me beyond words. he always knows how to tap into your soul and get you to keep moving forward.
i have decided that i will probably definitely do a figure show next summer. now i need to begin to write out my goals and formulate the game plan.
does anybody watch american idol? i know that's random but i was curious.
heading back home next week!
Talk to y'all later :)
thought i would blog and say hey. things are going great with my workouts and i'm loving the way tony has me going back and forth from body part to full blown CRIT (crit is secret DreamBodies language so i can't give specifics or tony would kill me- and sue me). o' well, i feel kinda tired of the whole dating thing. every time i come to LA, my family tries to hook me up with this guy from over here or that guy from over there (LOL) and I know it is all in an effort to get me to move to california. not gonna happen. but anyway, the dates have been boring and i've decided to focus on me and leave the men alone for a while. whether my family likes it or not.
gotta share something with my tony divas. did y'all see the newsletter about him running and crying??? OMG, i was like in tears reading it. hard to picture this big, sexy gorgeous guy running and balling on the treadmill. but, that is why we love him. his e-mails lately have motivated me beyond words. he always knows how to tap into your soul and get you to keep moving forward.
i have decided that i will probably definitely do a figure show next summer. now i need to begin to write out my goals and formulate the game plan.
does anybody watch american idol? i know that's random but i was curious.
heading back home next week!
Talk to y'all later :)
Friday, November 9, 2007
The Life of a Fitness Freak
i know, i know, i haven't blogged. sorry, i work crazy hours with the personal training and then got involved in Bootcamp leadership which totally sucked any free time i had away.
well, all i can say is things are going really well. my body is changing on a daily basis. big T told me to keep a journal and take pictures almost daily if you really want major accountability and it WORKS!! really, Tony is the most amazing trainer. i don't know how he juggles all of his clients especially us girls :) we can tough at times :) i'm so happy with my results and he has taken me beyond where i thought i could ever be.
i'm now officially dating someone. his name is Mike and hes cool and into fitness. here are his stats;
5'10"
dark brown hair
190 lbs (well built)
hobbies: he likes bodybuilding, fishing and reads more books in a week than I do in a year
movies: typical guy-action and horror (my favorite too though, hehehehe)
i confess i'm a very picky girl. i also confess that looks are very important to me. Mike is no Tony dicostanzo. funny story, when we got to know each other a little better i told mike about my trainer and so he went to the website (www.dreambodies.net). I said, isn't my trainer gorgeous?? he said, are you seriously asking me that question? i said, yes, why? he said, forget it. i didn't mean to hurt his feelings but dam, tony is fine! i also like my men with big muscles. mike said he thinks tony looks like he may use steroids. i said, here is my phone, call him and ask him. he said no, i'll take your word for it (chicken!). I know tony would never use anabolics and mike's comment pissed me off. why do guys get jealous and then need to make statements when they don't know the truth? i know tony is against all drugs even over the counter fat burners! that is what made me choose him.
well, in the end, mike apologized. i told him if you mess with the T-man, you mess with me. he is also thinking about calling tony to help him pack on the muscle. tell me that's not funny??
oh yeah, i almost forgot, i'm thinking about buying a new car. went to a few dealerships and i hate those salesmen. the first dealership, the guy asked me out--the second dealership the guy thought i was stupid and tried to talk me into a pathetic leasing thing--the third dealership i finally asked my boyfriend mike to come with me. it helped but i'm still looking. any suggestions?
keep trainin hard my fellow Tony divas :0)
well, all i can say is things are going really well. my body is changing on a daily basis. big T told me to keep a journal and take pictures almost daily if you really want major accountability and it WORKS!! really, Tony is the most amazing trainer. i don't know how he juggles all of his clients especially us girls :) we can tough at times :) i'm so happy with my results and he has taken me beyond where i thought i could ever be.
i'm now officially dating someone. his name is Mike and hes cool and into fitness. here are his stats;
5'10"
dark brown hair
190 lbs (well built)
hobbies: he likes bodybuilding, fishing and reads more books in a week than I do in a year
movies: typical guy-action and horror (my favorite too though, hehehehe)
i confess i'm a very picky girl. i also confess that looks are very important to me. Mike is no Tony dicostanzo. funny story, when we got to know each other a little better i told mike about my trainer and so he went to the website (www.dreambodies.net). I said, isn't my trainer gorgeous?? he said, are you seriously asking me that question? i said, yes, why? he said, forget it. i didn't mean to hurt his feelings but dam, tony is fine! i also like my men with big muscles. mike said he thinks tony looks like he may use steroids. i said, here is my phone, call him and ask him. he said no, i'll take your word for it (chicken!). I know tony would never use anabolics and mike's comment pissed me off. why do guys get jealous and then need to make statements when they don't know the truth? i know tony is against all drugs even over the counter fat burners! that is what made me choose him.
well, in the end, mike apologized. i told him if you mess with the T-man, you mess with me. he is also thinking about calling tony to help him pack on the muscle. tell me that's not funny??
oh yeah, i almost forgot, i'm thinking about buying a new car. went to a few dealerships and i hate those salesmen. the first dealership, the guy asked me out--the second dealership the guy thought i was stupid and tried to talk me into a pathetic leasing thing--the third dealership i finally asked my boyfriend mike to come with me. it helped but i'm still looking. any suggestions?
keep trainin hard my fellow Tony divas :0)
Monday, July 23, 2007
Love, Life and Muscle!
went out on a date last weekend. this guy has been on the prowl for a while. we met through a mutual friend and he has been relentless. so, how did it go? waste of my friday night. he kept asking me why i was eating this and not ordering alcohol and on and on he went. geeezzzzz, he annoyed the crap out of me :(
i'm overwhelmed with my workload and so i'm gettin up early, early for my extra cardio sessions. Tony has me on some short bulk-up cycle due to my rapid weight loss. it is working extremly well. muscle are poppin like never before. i asked big T if I could use some of the tricks on my clients (i'm a personal trainer as well), he said "go for it". So I will :)
if i don't get some new music on my Ipod, i'm goin to go out of my mind. here is a piece of advice i have been giving my clients but never following. if you don't change the music you workout to, it can effect your training negatively and you will not even realize it. that is, of course, if you're a music FREAK like me and can't train without it (hehehehehe)
till next time :)
i'm overwhelmed with my workload and so i'm gettin up early, early for my extra cardio sessions. Tony has me on some short bulk-up cycle due to my rapid weight loss. it is working extremly well. muscle are poppin like never before. i asked big T if I could use some of the tricks on my clients (i'm a personal trainer as well), he said "go for it". So I will :)
if i don't get some new music on my Ipod, i'm goin to go out of my mind. here is a piece of advice i have been giving my clients but never following. if you don't change the music you workout to, it can effect your training negatively and you will not even realize it. that is, of course, if you're a music FREAK like me and can't train without it (hehehehehe)
till next time :)
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