Reality Shows and THE TRUTH about Me!!

my life seems to be MY reality show, so i'm not too interested in many of these ridiculous TV programs anymore. i just wake up and open my eyes and there is REALITY (hehehehe). my reality show life kinda looks like that show on BRAVO , Workout (i think that's the name) with the gym owner girl because i work as a trainer at a crazy health club (no names, sorry). anyway, so much crap going on at my gym that it's hard to explain. the two guys that own the gym are criminals. one is on steroids bigtime and the other is a playboy who spends all day trying to "help" girls do their sets and reps right (uhh-hmm). well, yesterday they got into a fight and the steroid guy tossed a computer across the office and it hit one of the other trainers in the face. not funny at all. then some girl comes in cryin because"playboy" boss didn't pick her up earlier for lunch and drinks and she was sad. little did she know he was up in another office boinking one of the new trainers (YUK). he tried to pull that sh$t with me more than once but i let him have it "street-style" and he hasn't tried since.

dating scene is quiet right now, but that is about to change as i seem to have found someone i think is awesome, okay i better relax and not jinx it (LOL)

my workouts are awesome and i'm gettin stronger every day. my body is lookin crazy-hot. maybe i'll lose the vanity and post up one or two pics soon for yall to see. i haven't looked like this ever in my life and have some truth to share about my past. i used to have a serious eating disorder. okay, it was life threatening, that's pretty serious huh? i recently read so many other girls sharing and telling some of their darkest trials, i just felt it was time to talk about it. i have a problem sharing too much of it because i was never able to deal with it myself let alone talk about it. although i have shared some of my personal past, lets just say that life was pretty much over at one point. im getting emotional now so ill save the rest for another time.

anyway, thanks to my friend and the greatest personal trainer in the universe (Tony-DUH), i now live for today and tomorrow and feel like i can conquer the world. there was a time when i didn't think i would make it. i know, i was young and had my whole life ahead of me but still didn't think i would make it. life is precious and time is NOT something you get back. Tony taught me that once. you can get back money, things and all the stuff in the world if you work hard enough,,but you never get back time. so true. so true. i'm not wasting anymore of mine. you will never read this tony,,but thank you,,thank you tony for the new body and the new mind.

well, off to the crazy gym for another day of wackiness!!!!

California and O'Yeah The Newsletter that Made me Cry!!

i'm here in california with family and also working while I take some time here on the West coast. I do a lot of that east coast/west coast thing. tupac and Dr. Dre said it best "California, knows how to party" (guess that will fly over the heads of those who don't follow hip/hop).

thought i would blog and say hey. things are going great with my workouts and i'm loving the way tony has me going back and forth from body part to full blown CRIT (crit is secret DreamBodies language so i can't give specifics or tony would kill me- and sue me). o' well, i feel kinda tired of the whole dating thing. every time i come to LA, my family tries to hook me up with this guy from over here or that guy from over there (LOL) and I know it is all in an effort to get me to move to california. not gonna happen. but anyway, the dates have been boring and i've decided to focus on me and leave the men alone for a while. whether my family likes it or not.

gotta share something with my tony divas. did y'all see the newsletter about him running and crying??? OMG, i was like in tears reading it. hard to picture this big, sexy gorgeous guy running and balling on the treadmill. but, that is why we love him. his e-mails lately have motivated me beyond words. he always knows how to tap into your soul and get you to keep moving forward.

i have decided that i will probably definitely do a figure show next summer. now i need to begin to write out my goals and formulate the game plan.

does anybody watch american idol? i know that's random but i was curious.

heading back home next week!

Talk to y'all later :)

The Life of a Fitness Freak

i know, i know, i haven't blogged. sorry, i work crazy hours with the personal training and then got involved in Bootcamp leadership which totally sucked any free time i had away.

well, all i can say is things are going really well. my body is changing on a daily basis. big T told me to keep a journal and take pictures almost daily if you really want major accountability and it WORKS!! really, Tony is the most amazing trainer. i don't know how he juggles all of his clients especially us girls :) we can tough at times :) i'm so happy with my results and he has taken me beyond where i thought i could ever be.

i'm now officially dating someone. his name is Mike and hes cool and into fitness. here are his stats;
5'10"
dark brown hair
190 lbs (well built)
hobbies: he likes bodybuilding, fishing and reads more books in a week than I do in a year
movies: typical guy-action and horror (my favorite too though, hehehehe)

i confess i'm a very picky girl. i also confess that looks are very important to me. Mike is no Tony dicostanzo. funny story, when we got to know each other a little better i told mike about my trainer and so he went to the website (www.dreambodies.net). I said, isn't my trainer gorgeous?? he said, are you seriously asking me that question? i said, yes, why? he said, forget it. i didn't mean to hurt his feelings but dam, tony is fine! i also like my men with big muscles. mike said he thinks tony looks like he may use steroids. i said, here is my phone, call him and ask him. he said no, i'll take your word for it (chicken!). I know tony would never use anabolics and mike's comment pissed me off. why do guys get jealous and then need to make statements when they don't know the truth? i know tony is against all drugs even over the counter fat burners! that is what made me choose him.

well, in the end, mike apologized. i told him if you mess with the T-man, you mess with me. he is also thinking about calling tony to help him pack on the muscle. tell me that's not funny??

oh yeah, i almost forgot, i'm thinking about buying a new car. went to a few dealerships and i hate those salesmen. the first dealership, the guy asked me out--the second dealership the guy thought i was stupid and tried to talk me into a pathetic leasing thing--the third dealership i finally asked my boyfriend mike to come with me. it helped but i'm still looking. any suggestions?

keep trainin hard my fellow Tony divas :0)

Love, Life and Muscle!

went out on a date last weekend. this guy has been on the prowl for a while. we met through a mutual friend and he has been relentless. so, how did it go? waste of my friday night. he kept asking me why i was eating this and not ordering alcohol and on and on he went. geeezzzzz, he annoyed the crap out of me :(

i'm overwhelmed with my workload and so i'm gettin up early, early for my extra cardio sessions. Tony has me on some short bulk-up cycle due to my rapid weight loss. it is working extremly well. muscle are poppin like never before. i asked big T if I could use some of the tricks on my clients (i'm a personal trainer as well), he said "go for it". So I will :)

if i don't get some new music on my Ipod, i'm goin to go out of my mind. here is a piece of advice i have been giving my clients but never following. if you don't change the music you workout to, it can effect your training negatively and you will not even realize it. that is, of course, if you're a music FREAK like me and can't train without it (hehehehehe)

till next time :)

I'll Go Through You!

Someone sent me these kool words recently so i thought i would share them. they came to me after I shared some personal stuff on another blog that had been trying to come back at me in my sometimes miserable life. anyway here goes............

"If you disregard my words, I'll go around you you. If you ignore my ideas, I'll go over you. If you laugh at my dreams, I'll go through you!"

my life???? pretty much been a life filled with goin around, over and through. not complainin, just sayin. it is what it is. if i had a dime for every time someone important in my life didn't believe in me, i would OWN bill gates and microsoft.

on the fitness front, i'm kickin it for real. I'm down a total of 14 pounds. my body is lookin tight, hard and vascular. my trainer (the one and only Tony) has been puttin the "mental" into my game plan and it has me flying high. don't want junk food and not gonna let it get in the way of my goals.

all for now. OUT!

Glimpse of Glory or ...is it Ugly?

the other night at the gym i was doing my extra cardio and i turned to look at myself in the mirror. i'm my own worst critic. really, i don't think i have ever been happy with myself. although i have been told the opposite (mostly by guys tryin to get some), i just feel like i always want to change somethin about me. by the way, i've been told more than once by different people that i look like a cross between tyra banks and J-lo...WTF! WTF does that mean??? i don't see it....

anyway, as i was looking and beating myself up over what i saw (by the way, i look better than I ever have in my life right now), the guy next to me on the treadmill asked me if i had done magazine covers. i was like, whatever. he said, no really, you look like someone i saw on a fitness magazine recently. he was serious and even told me he would bring it in to the gym next time to show me. all i know is this, God sometimes brings things just when we need them. after he said that, i looked in the mirror and said, DAMN, i do look freakin HOT :) then i remembered something Tony (www.dreambodies.net) told me once about how i need to understand who "i" am. he was right. no matter if that guy brings the magazine or not, i need to see the good and not the ugly. on another note, damn those shin splints :(

Get out of my way!

Sometimes just the everyday momentum of life seems to get in the way. i was talking with a few girlfriends recently and they were telling me about personal issues and I was getting all bummed out. then they went on to start complaining about their bodies and their boy problems and I was like GIVE IT A REST! I listened and tried to help them out. we talked and talked. then they started to slowly depress me. wanted to know why i eat such clean food. wanted to know why i follow the directions of this HOT gorgeous italian guy (Tony..my trainer for those who do not know) who i never met. go eat girl, you look awesome. why you doin that? meanwhile, all they do when i see them is want to know what Tony has me doin...when did you talk to him last? will he train us? let's fly to NY and meet him,,,,,,blah, blah, blah. Like i would let them get anywhere near him :) hehehehehe

i realized something as i listened to them. i realized that they were truly affecting me negatively. then i remembered something Big T told me about surrounding myself with people who were positive and who shared in my dreams. i made a decision to make some changes. I will now really be aware of how i spend my time and with "WHO". i heard a figure competitor say the same thing this past week in my gym. Stay away from negative people.

So i will do that.